How was your weekend? I didn't post on Friday, as you may, or may not, have noticed. Near the end of a hectic day on Thursday we were rear ended in rush hour traffic. A few contractions, and then I felt okay, so I finished out the day. Then on Friday morning, a friend mentioned that I should call the doc "just in case." Well, it turns out that it is standard procedure to be monitored following an accident, even a minor accident. Apparently, when any "belly trauma" occurs there is a possibility of bleeding in the placenta, though the doctor assured me that everything was probably fine.
As I'm sure you other mamas know, it's not always easy to find somebody to mind the kids on short notice in the middle of a weekday. Eventually I found someone, and headed to the hospital. After a couple hours of monitoring the baby's heart rate, a sonogram, and some blood work the verdict was in - everything was fine. And this is exactly what the doctor had predicted, but still, doesn't that anxiety seem to kick into overdrive when related to maternal matters? And that anxiety is physically draining.
Until this weekend, I was feeling on top of things - Christmas preparation, household stuff, the blog. But then, almost more so after the worry was allayed, I just felt tired. And anxious for the first time about other things. Maybe it was the unexpected visit to Labor and Delivery at the hospital, but all of sudden I panicked about not having the co-sleeper set up, the baby's clothes sorted out, my hospital bag packed. Panicked that I don't know what to get my husband for Christmas. Panicked that I haven't done this or that organization project around the house, most of which are centered on the constant in and out shuffle of children's clothing as seasons change and growth occurs.
SO CRAZY. I KNOW.
Yet real. So I just want to ask you to hang in there with me over the next few weeks. I'll try to post as regularly as possible, not because I think you're hanging on my every word, but because I enjoy it. I enjoy interacting with you, and I hope you feel the same. And if things are crazy for you, too, right now, even if just in your head, remember: